Stay
I wanted to die.
I tried to die.
I thought the only way to escape the pain of my life was to check out of my life.
I felt alone, and confused, and used and abused and like no one cared and like I couldn't be myself in this world that was built on making people like me swallow their stories.
Maybe you feel like you're swallowing your story too.
Maybe you feel like the only way out is to hurt yourself. I know because I've been there. I thought the only way to keep living was to tell my truth on my skin. And when the only way you can breathe is by hurting yourself killing yourself doesn't feel like a choice anymore. it feels like a dimly lit exit sign in a room that is closing in on you. Either way is going to kill you but at least this way you have the hope of something better.
at least that's what I told myself. I was tired of the depression and the monsters in my mind and swallowing my truth to try to fit into a society that is built on people faking it. I was tired of pretending I was fine and that the things that had happened to me didn't hurt me. But I wasn't brave enough to say that because all I had ever seen were people lying and faking it and keeping things under the rug, people who were fine.
I would have rather died than be who I was. because who I was, the truth, felt like it wasn't ok. We don't say those things here. We smile and pretend we're fine.
But the truth is I wasn't fine.
Maybe you feel like this too. And if this is you I want to take you out for coffee and listen to your story and tell you that you aren't alone. And who you are is fucking awesome.
If I could only tell you one thing I would say stay. I would tell you healing is possible. And I would say even if it doesn't feel like it right now there are people who need to hear your truth. Your story matters. You don't need to live in shame and darkness anymore.
I know because I've done it.
I kept living when I wanted to die. I stayed. I stayed and watched things get better. I stayed and fell in love. I stayed and found my tribe, people who tell me every day that my story and my life matters. I stayed and had coffee this morning and kissed my husband before he went off to work this morning.
For #WSPD2017 I am partnering with TWLOHA to raise money for suicide prevention. They, like me, believe everyone deserves access to healing, resources and support so they can stay and find out what they were made for.
I have decided to run this as a little fundraiser. For every purchase made through me with Young Living between now and September 10 all profit will be donated to TWLOHA and their 2017 suicide prevention day campaign.
Because I believe everyone should have the chance to stay and find out what they were made for.
You can order by sending me a message (I'll be doing a mass order a little later) or by using my sponsorship ID at Young Living's website (10777337). If you have any questions send me a message and i'll help however I can.
And if you or someone you know is in danger, please reach out. We were not made to walk this life alone. Your truth matters. You can contact me (call, text, Alisha Hiebert -yoga+oils on facebook or alishahiebertyoga on instagram) or check out twloha.com
Together we can be the change.
I tried to die.
I thought the only way to escape the pain of my life was to check out of my life.
I felt alone, and confused, and used and abused and like no one cared and like I couldn't be myself in this world that was built on making people like me swallow their stories.
Maybe you feel like you're swallowing your story too.
Maybe you feel like the only way out is to hurt yourself. I know because I've been there. I thought the only way to keep living was to tell my truth on my skin. And when the only way you can breathe is by hurting yourself killing yourself doesn't feel like a choice anymore. it feels like a dimly lit exit sign in a room that is closing in on you. Either way is going to kill you but at least this way you have the hope of something better.
at least that's what I told myself. I was tired of the depression and the monsters in my mind and swallowing my truth to try to fit into a society that is built on people faking it. I was tired of pretending I was fine and that the things that had happened to me didn't hurt me. But I wasn't brave enough to say that because all I had ever seen were people lying and faking it and keeping things under the rug, people who were fine.
I would have rather died than be who I was. because who I was, the truth, felt like it wasn't ok. We don't say those things here. We smile and pretend we're fine.
But the truth is I wasn't fine.
Maybe you feel like this too. And if this is you I want to take you out for coffee and listen to your story and tell you that you aren't alone. And who you are is fucking awesome.
If I could only tell you one thing I would say stay. I would tell you healing is possible. And I would say even if it doesn't feel like it right now there are people who need to hear your truth. Your story matters. You don't need to live in shame and darkness anymore.
I know because I've done it.
I kept living when I wanted to die. I stayed. I stayed and watched things get better. I stayed and fell in love. I stayed and found my tribe, people who tell me every day that my story and my life matters. I stayed and had coffee this morning and kissed my husband before he went off to work this morning.
For #WSPD2017 I am partnering with TWLOHA to raise money for suicide prevention. They, like me, believe everyone deserves access to healing, resources and support so they can stay and find out what they were made for.
I have decided to run this as a little fundraiser. For every purchase made through me with Young Living between now and September 10 all profit will be donated to TWLOHA and their 2017 suicide prevention day campaign.
Because I believe everyone should have the chance to stay and find out what they were made for.
You can order by sending me a message (I'll be doing a mass order a little later) or by using my sponsorship ID at Young Living's website (10777337). If you have any questions send me a message and i'll help however I can.
And if you or someone you know is in danger, please reach out. We were not made to walk this life alone. Your truth matters. You can contact me (call, text, Alisha Hiebert -yoga+oils on facebook or alishahiebertyoga on instagram) or check out twloha.com
Together we can be the change.
So powerful sis
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