Gilead

"People will disapprove of you. you'll be misunderstood. those who wanted to control you with their words or their rules will come down harshly on you. people you so desperately wanted approval from will raise an eyebrow or look the other direction. this is a part of the great liberation" I wrote recently about finding your tribe. I lost a lot of things during my season of deconstruction, one of them being my tribe. My beliefs were changing, where i fell politically was changing, what i believed about God was changing. And that change was too much for some people. I was shamed, both publicly and privately. people pulled away from me because i just wasn't the same anymore or they disapproved of the choices i was making or my growth somehow threatened them and what they thought they knew or they were convinced i had gone off the deep end. i pulled away from people to, because they just didn't get it anymore, because they were unable to support me on my journey in...

when i started this blog, i knew i wanted to be honest. i'd spent too long filtering myself, not saying things because i was afraid of how people might react. i've spent so long sitting down and biting my tongue and standing in the background because i was afraid to rock the boat. but when i made this blog i knew i was ready to start telling the truth about my life and owning the things that had happened to me (i'm learning there is a difference between owning my story and stepping on the toes of others. i own every single thing that happened to me, and can talk about my own experiences. what i cannot speak to is the other person's experiences, thoughts, motives... It goes back to keeping my eyes on my own side of the road). But something happened as i began telling the truth about my life in such a public way. I wrote a post that ruffled some feathers. It tipped that boat right over. I knew there would be feedback when i decided to post such intimate details of my li...