When love says go
"If you want crappy things to stop happening to you then stop accepting the crap and demand something more" Cristina Yang
OR
"You want to stop feeling like crap? Then stop accepting the crap and do something about it." The words that have been running through my mind for the last few days
Sometimes love asks you to do scary things. Really scary things. The kind that make you want to drop this whole healing journey process and run back to the safety of the known.
I came to a realization a while ago that if I wanted to live the healing journey I talk about living on instagram with the same kind of courage I admire in others something needed to change.
I couldn't shake the feeling. It's been lingering in the back of my mind since the beginning of this year but in the last month or so the thought roared so loud I couldn't quiet it, could no longer ignore it, could no longer pretend this calling wasn't for me.
See when you listen to the voice of Divine Love, and when you learn a fierce loving compassion first for yourself and then for others, sometimes crazy shit happens.
Like this morning. When I quit my full time, predictable paycheck job.
It sounds crazy. And I won't get into the details of why I walked away from this job other than it was to follow the leading of Divine Love. I have nothing else lined up (Besides my oils business which is still in its baby stages and is no where near the nice, predictable paycheck I have been getting up until this point) and in all honesty I don't know where i'm heading after this. Maybe I'll stay working in childcare. Maybe my yoga and oils business will provide enough income that i no longer have to go back to a job outside the home (the dream). Maybe I'll go sell shoes.
But i was listening to a podcast this afternoon with Rob Bell and he was talking about leaving his mega-church pastor position without knowing what comes next and he said something along the lines of "Maybe i'll go sell shoes. but whatever i do after this at least i'll have my soul."
That's how I feel. Scared shitless, stepping out on faith but knowing whatever i do after this at least i listened to the voice of Divine Love.
And sometimes love says go. Sometimes love says 'trust me even when you don't have the next step figured out'
in ironic timing I've been receiving lots of messages about abundance lately. It's what we are focusing on as a yoga and oils team, about living and teaching and loving from a place of abundance rather than a place of poverty.
And the other day on her instagram my friend Stephanie (who lives in the desert and is in the middle of monsoon season) posted this "there is life in the waiting. the hallways, the thresholds, the liminal spaces in life are not a waste. this isn't where we shut down and simply survive - this is where we watch for what we know is coming. anticipation builds, hope rises, we face the heat and the wind because we know the water is coming. we know that the desert floor, so packed down and tight, won't be capable of absorbing the rain so the streets will flood."
So that's where i am right now, friends. waiting for what i know is coming - abundance, more so than i ever could have dreamed. praying for these streets to be flooded.
following the leading of love and waiting for love to show me my next move. because where love leads i will follow. where it stays i will stay.
OR
"You want to stop feeling like crap? Then stop accepting the crap and do something about it." The words that have been running through my mind for the last few days
Sometimes love asks you to do scary things. Really scary things. The kind that make you want to drop this whole healing journey process and run back to the safety of the known.
I came to a realization a while ago that if I wanted to live the healing journey I talk about living on instagram with the same kind of courage I admire in others something needed to change.
I couldn't shake the feeling. It's been lingering in the back of my mind since the beginning of this year but in the last month or so the thought roared so loud I couldn't quiet it, could no longer ignore it, could no longer pretend this calling wasn't for me.
See when you listen to the voice of Divine Love, and when you learn a fierce loving compassion first for yourself and then for others, sometimes crazy shit happens.
Like this morning. When I quit my full time, predictable paycheck job.
It sounds crazy. And I won't get into the details of why I walked away from this job other than it was to follow the leading of Divine Love. I have nothing else lined up (Besides my oils business which is still in its baby stages and is no where near the nice, predictable paycheck I have been getting up until this point) and in all honesty I don't know where i'm heading after this. Maybe I'll stay working in childcare. Maybe my yoga and oils business will provide enough income that i no longer have to go back to a job outside the home (the dream). Maybe I'll go sell shoes.
But i was listening to a podcast this afternoon with Rob Bell and he was talking about leaving his mega-church pastor position without knowing what comes next and he said something along the lines of "Maybe i'll go sell shoes. but whatever i do after this at least i'll have my soul."
That's how I feel. Scared shitless, stepping out on faith but knowing whatever i do after this at least i listened to the voice of Divine Love.
And sometimes love says go. Sometimes love says 'trust me even when you don't have the next step figured out'
in ironic timing I've been receiving lots of messages about abundance lately. It's what we are focusing on as a yoga and oils team, about living and teaching and loving from a place of abundance rather than a place of poverty.
And the other day on her instagram my friend Stephanie (who lives in the desert and is in the middle of monsoon season) posted this "there is life in the waiting. the hallways, the thresholds, the liminal spaces in life are not a waste. this isn't where we shut down and simply survive - this is where we watch for what we know is coming. anticipation builds, hope rises, we face the heat and the wind because we know the water is coming. we know that the desert floor, so packed down and tight, won't be capable of absorbing the rain so the streets will flood."
So that's where i am right now, friends. waiting for what i know is coming - abundance, more so than i ever could have dreamed. praying for these streets to be flooded.
following the leading of love and waiting for love to show me my next move. because where love leads i will follow. where it stays i will stay.
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